The Roof, late Saturday night

[trigons_child]

Raven had been grateful for Karla's insistence that she stay with her once they returned to the dorms. The thought of being alone again terrified her. But her guilt and sadness made it impossible for her to rest, and since she didn't want to disturb Karla or Gabrielle's sleep, she slipped out of the room to find some place to meditate.

She didn't want to go up to her room; she had no idea what Ariel had been told about her disappearance or return and didn't want to frighten her by suddenly walking into the room. So she retreated to the roof instead. The black nightgown Karla had given her (her own, in fact, which had been left behind after Karla's Virgin Night) would have been little defense against the cold, so she'd taken the white cloak Sebastian had insisted she wear. She didn't like that it was his or that it was stained with Warren's blood, smeared there when she'd hugged Karla, but it was better than freezing.

She was back in Fandom, back home with those she loved, much as the memory of what she'd done to them tormented her. But people had died to bring her back, some willingly, some not. She hadn't asked for that, she never would have asked for that, and now she was scared what the dark magics used to resurrect her body might have done.

Her father was gone, but so was Azarath. Her friends were forgiving, but she could feel the tension beneath their words. Jono was afraid of her -- no, not her. Himself. And she was so weary of being used, by Sebastian, by Trigon, even by Azar.

She didn't know how to begin to make things right. So for now, she huddled in a dark corner of the roof and quietly cried.


[OOC: open! But emo girl is emo. ;) ]
 

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[longislandiceme]

Sleeping wasn't something Bobby had been doing much of, lately. Instead, he'd been spending a lot of time outside, where it didn't matter if his temperature dropped unexpectedly since it was already cold out.

Giving the roof a once-over as he stepped outside, he spotted the figure in the shadows. "Hey," he called out softly as he made his way over. "You okay over there?"

[trigons_child]

Raven shook her head, pulling her cloak more tightly around herself. The white stood out in the darkness, not that she would have tried to hide from Bobby.

"No," she said quietly. "I am not."

[longislandiceme]

Bobby dropped to a crouch next to her. "I can see that now," he commented quietly. "Heck of a day, huh?" Bobby Drake, master of the understatement.

[trigons_child]

"I should not be here," Raven said, wiping a hand across her eyes. "I do not deserve this."

[longislandiceme]

"Says who?" Bobby wanted to know.

[theotherpeter.livejournal.com]

Peter didn't often visit the roof. And really, when in the middle of winter you go out onto the roof with a small bucket filled with water-soluble paint-filled water balloons, you hope no one is there to see you.

You especially don't expect to see a dead person.

"...Oh shit, did I just have a stroke or something?" Peter said, in lieu of a hello. Oops.

[trigons_child]

Raven dabbed her cloak at her eyes and looked at Peter. "You are in good health," she assured him. "I can sense no signs of an imminent stroke."

[theotherpeter.livejournal.com]

"Okay, then don't take this as a bad thing, and if you aren't I'm actually pretty okay with that news, but aren't you supposed to be dead?" Peter said. "And like I said, I'm not using 'supposed to' like I want you that way or anything."

[trigons_child]

"Oh," Raven said, realizing why he'd been so shocked now. She was going to have to get used to that.

"I was," she admitted. "I am not now." Obviously.

[theotherpeter.livejournal.com]

It really showed how much Peter was used to Fandom that he just shrugged and said "Cool. Glad that didn't stick for you." He kept his probing questions to himself, at least for now.

He cast a glance down at the bucket he'd brought up with him and set it down. "So, uhhh, does this mean you've come back to forgive us all our sins, or are you still normal, everyday Raven?"

[angelo_wings]

Rinoa wasn't sure why she wasn't in bed, but she was feeling strangely restless. She wrapped herself in a warm coat and found her way to the roof, soothed by the distant stars.

She noticed the other girl, obviously distraught, and approached, hoping to console her. It was only when she got closer that she saw the girl under the cloak.

"... Raven?"

Her fingers were instinctively closing around her rings.

[trigons_child]

Raven quickly wiped the back of her hand across her eyes to try to hide her tears. "Hello, Rinoa," she said. "I am sorry, I did not intend to startle anyone by being here tonight."

Only Raven would apologize for being alive.

[angelo_wings]

(I'm thinking something that starts with "G" and ends with "od, Raven" ...)

"You didn't," Rinoa insisted. Okay, maybe she was startled, but that seemed rude to say. "I mean, are you all right? I wasn't expecting to ... see you."

Something to do with her having attended Raven's memorial service. Of course, radio had said Raven had appeared in a bowling alley, with her hands on fire, but she had assumed that was some kind of a misunderstanding.

Apparently ... not?

[trigons_child]

"I am physically well," Raven said. Which was mostly the truth; she was worried about the effects of how she was resurrected, but all her parts seemed to be in the right place and working now.

"I am not a ghost," she said, in case that was a concern. "I was restored to life."

[nothornlessrose.livejournal.com]

Cassidy just needed to get out of her room for a bit. It felt too closed in. She knew that Shira and Elle would have a fit if she went down into garden this late at night, so the roof was the next best thing. She pulled on her coat and boots and after putting warming spells on both, she headed up to the roof.

Once she stepped out, she could feel something different. She tightened her mental shields and looked around.

There, off in the corner was someone she thought she would never see again. "Raven."

She almost ran over to her and threw her arms around her. "Raven! Oh Raven!"

[trigons_child]

After Peter and Rinoa's startled reactions, Raven was hardly expecting a hug, but she was happy to accept it. "Hello, Cassidy," she murmured, hugging her back. "It is good to see you again."

[nothornlessrose.livejournal.com]

"I am so glad you're back, Raven," the usually bouncy witch said as she continued to hug her.

[trigons_child]

"And I am glad to be home again," Raven said. It was on the tip of her tongue to warn Cassidy about the blood all over her cloak, but it was dried now at least, so it shouldn't get all over her.

"And I am sorry if I made you sad while I was gone," she added.

[justwantsquiet.livejournal.com]

It was only natural that Sookie, upon waking and finding Bobby's spot in her bed empty, did a mental scan. That was her usual reaction, and in light of recent events, it felt even more important than usual. But Bobby's brain wasn't the only awake, functioning one she found, and as a result, she slipped out of bed and grabbed both a jacket and a box of cookies before going up to the roof.

"What was that about you needing to rest?" Sookie asked as she wandered over to Raven.

[trigons_child]

"I could not sleep," Raven said, giving Sookie a wan smile. "I did not want to disturb Karla and Gabrielle, so I came up here." She didn't know Karla herself had slipped out after she'd left.

[justwantsquiet.livejournal.com]

"I brought food," she offered, holding out the cookies before taking a seat beside Raven. "In case you hadn't, yet."

[trigons_child]

"I have not had much of an appetite," Raven admitted. Probably in no small part to the food she'd been given at the church being drugged to help keep her passive, even after Sebastian had bitten her chakra off.

She did take a cookie, though, and nibbled at it politely.

[longislandiceme]

"Did I wake you up?" Bobby asked apologetically from where he sat at the edge of the roof, legs dangling over the edge.

[justwantsquiet.livejournal.com]

"Not like I was sleeping well to begin with," Sookie assured him, wandering over to press a kiss to the top of his head. "Want a cookie?"

[longislandiceme]

"Like I would refuse sugar," Bobby said by way of an answer.