Sunday night, outside the dorms

[trigons_child]

After Raven had fled from Liir when he and the others had begun to awaken, she hadn't known where to go. She was drawn first to the place Max had taken her in the other Fandom -- 29 Chimera Court -- and for a moment she was filled with rage and despair again, along with the urge to tear the building down with her bare hands. But it was obvious it was someone else's home now, so she fled again, teleporting herself to the place where she had died.

There was nothing to mark the place, of course, but she just knew. Kneeling, she touched her hand to the ground. She held no blame for Anakin for striking her down; he had to, or she might have killed him and others in the dorms. She had lost control, like Azar had always warned her could happen. Her teacher had only done what he had to do to stop her.

It would be easier if she could just say it was her other self who was responsible, but it had been she who lost control. She had used her gifts against Tahiri, and then the vampires who tried to attack her and Anakin. She had taken pleasure from pain -- both giving and receiving. She was her father's daughter.

Raven screamed, unable to contain the raging emotions she was trying to keep inside herself, then covered her face in her hands, shaking with silent sobs.


[ooc: Technically open, but she is not likely to talk to anyone she doesn't know, and she's in a verrry bad place. Because I am cruel, and because you cannot spell demon without "emo." If anyone body is looking for her, she's probably sending up an unintentional beacon.]

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[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

Hurley was out walking, mainly to prove to himself it was safe to be out and walking.

He spotted Raven, and kinda hurried his butt over to where she was.

"Dude."

[trigons_child]

Raven drew in a shuddering breath when she heard Hurley's approach, trying to reign her emotions back in. "Go away," she said. "You are not safe here."

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

"Well if it's not safe here, you should come with," Hurley said, a little confused. And worried.

[trigons_child]

"You are not safe from me, Hurley," Raven said. "You must not get close."

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

Hurley took two steps back, but he didn't leave.

"What's wrong?" he asked.

[trigons_child]

"I cannot control my powers," Raven choked out. "I am hurting those around me. I am putting everyone in danger."

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

"...I'm not hurt," Hurley pointed out. "I mean, I feel kinda safe. I mean, even though you're saying I'm not."

He was trying to be reassuring.

[trigons_child]

"I have control for now," Raven said. "But it will not last. Please, you must leave me."

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

"Well, what do you need to help?" Hurley said. "Cause... yeah."

[trigons_child]

"No one can help me," Raven said quietly. "I thought I could run from my fate, but I cannot."

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

Hurley was, admittedly, nervous. But he decided to brave it and step closer.

"Is this about scary other world stuff?" Hurley said. "Cause... I don't think that stuff means we're fated to it or anything. Honest."

He really, really hoped so, at least.

[trigons_child]

"For most others, that is the case," Raven said. "But I walked down the same path as my other self, and I was no stronger than she was. I tried to kill. I would have killed if Professor Skywalker had not stopped me."

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

"But now you've, like... learned what happens," Hurley said, gingerly trying to place a hand on her back. "So you know where you need to, like... be careful and stuff."

[trigons_child]

Raven flinched, but she did not pull away. "I cannot be responsible for another's death," she said. "It is against everything I believe in. I cannot take that risk...."

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

"Hey, I dunno what you're thinking, but the Rachel that helped me out in class, she's kinda awesome. And she definitely has the strength to control herself," Hurley said.

[trigons_child]

"Rachel is just a mask," Raven whispered. "One I used to hide what I truly am. Daughter of Trigon the Terrible, destroyer of worlds."

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"Dude, I'm pretty sure you're not your dad," Hurley said. "If we were doomed to be our parents, I think I'd be freaking out too."

...admittedly, Hurley did do that from time to time.

[trigons_child]

"I have tried to believe that, Hurley," Raven said. "I truly tried. But I almost killed Professor Skywalker. He has helped me so much, and I turned on him!"

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

"But not here," Hurley said. "I mean, I did some stuff over in that place that was dumb, too. And... I really don't think I'm that guy, either."

[trigons_child]

"I do not think I can bear to see him here," Raven said. "I made him kill me. I cannot bear his disappointment in what I have become. He had faith in me and I have broken that faith." She was starting to cry again, much as she tried not to.

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

Hurley had to break out the big guns, then, and went to try and just hug her.

[trigons_child]

Raven sank against Hurley, letting herself cry. She had always swallowed sorrow before today and not let it show, as she had been taught, but tonight it was pouring out of her.

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

"I totally believe you can do it," Hurley said. "Even if you can't, right now."

[trigons_child]

"I do not wish to hurt anyone," Raven wept. "Pain is my enemy, but I reveled in it."

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

Hurley really had no idea what he could say to help.

So he went with the standby.

"You want to go get ice cream?"

[trigons_child]

Raven looked up at Hurley, sniffling. "Ice cream?"

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

"Yeah, ice cream," Hurley said. "It could help."

[trigons_child]

"If...if you think so," Raven said, wiping her eyes.

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

"My treat," Hurley said. "So, you got nothin' to lose." He gave her a reassuring smile.

[trigons_child]

Raven nodded shakily. "Very well," she said. "I will try."

[likes-chicken.livejournal.com]

"Awesome," Hurley said. "That's all any of us can ever promise."