Room 509, Sunday morning

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Raven had been struggling to hold herself together for the past few days. It had been hard for her to deal with people leaving, Dinah and Hoshi and Joan most of all. But Didi hadn't just left, she was gone, and Jono was in so much pain. She'd pushed aside her own grief to be there for him, taking her charge from Didi very seriously, watching over him and making sure he knew he was not alone. She worried though about making him feel smothered, so she was glad take time to rest and to allow Ben or someone else to make certain Jono was all right.

Meeting her new little sibling Kon at the welcome picnic had been interesting, particularly since he was from a world similar to hers and knew of a Raven who was a hero. Through and through, he had said, and after what she had been told by someone else from her future about how she was evil, it had been a great relief.

But one more newcomer had spoiled that pleasure. Zatanna. The woman who had proclaimed her evil and made the Justice League turn its back on her. The one who led them to stop the ritual that would have barred Trigon's way into this world. Whose actions led to Arella sacrificing herself to hold Trigon back. Who said Raven had enough darkness in her to break this plane.

She'd contained her anger -- just barely -- even as some small part of her struggled to accept that this Zatanna was not the same as the one she knew. But that allowed all her grief and pain to come rushing out now, everything from Arella's loss to her soul being ravaged as Fandom had been devoured by the void to Andy and his brother who seemed to hate her to Karla to people going away to Didi and Jono to Zatanna. She'd held everything in too long, and now it all came crashing down on her, and all she could do was huddle on her bed and cry.


[ooc: Mostly establishly since she's been heading for a minibreakdown for awhile now, but if you want to deal with Emo Girl, feel free to knock. ;) And thanks to Bridgey for pointing out that first tag.]
 

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Diana didn't really deal well with people randomly crying around her, but she did walk over and attempt to put her arm around her roommate. And shot helpless glances at Samuel.

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Raven sniffled and tried to collect herself. "I am sorry," she said, embarrassed.

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Diana patted her lightly on the back. "Nah, sometimes you just need to cry, you know?" Ignore her helpless glances at her cat.

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"I am still not used to crying," Raven said, wiping a hand across her eyes. "I did not cry until I came here." Not even at Azar's funeral.

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"Being a teenage girl causes tears?" Diana tried, still continuing with the patting. "Or you got used to dealing with your emotions and not bottling them up or something?"

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"I still have difficulty expressing some emotions," Raven said with a nod. "I have let these sorrows build up too much."

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"Sometimes, you just need to let it out." Diana said, in what she hoped was a patient and sympathetic tone.

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"I did not mean for you to see," Raven said, her cheeks turning pink. She took a breath to collect herself. "Do you remember when we faced my father, the people who came to stop us? The woman who said that I was evil?"

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Diana nodded. "Vaguely?"

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"She is here, a student," Raven said. "I met her at the picnic. I was not pleased." To say the least.

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"Oh." Diana said and tried to figure out what to say to that. "Did she apologize?"

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"She claimed not to know me, yet she said I was filled with darkness," Raven said unhappily. "Perhaps she is not the same Zatanna as I know, but I still do not want her here."

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"Zatanna?" Diana asked, slowly.

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Raven nodded. "Yes, Zatanna Zatara," she said. "Did you meet her?"

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"Uh...yeah." Diana decided that some creative editing here would be useful. "She seemed pretty young. Maybe she's very early on in the timeline or something?"

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"Perhaps," Raven said. That was beginning to become easier to accept. "But she will attempt to do the same thing, and drive me from Fandom by convincing everyone I am evil."

Raven was a wee bit paranoid, yes.

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"Um...Don't you think that's a bit paranoid?" Diana checked.

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"I cannot trust her not to do so," Raven said. "Because of her, I have lost my mother!"

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Diana continued trying to do the helpful backrubing thing. "Look, you've been here longer than she has. Everyone knows that you're nice, and sweet, and help people. They know you. They know you're a good person. She's not going to change. Actions speak louder than words, you know."

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"Yes, but...." Raven sighed, pressing her hands to her temples. The backrubbing and Diana's calmness was helping at least. "I should not be so upset. But I am not pleased to see her here. I think I will try to avoid her, for she has made me unsettled."

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Diana nodded, out of view. "There we go. Just avoid her and it'll all be fine." Not the best advice, but hey.

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"I will try," Raven said. "I hope she is not in any of my classes." She managed a weak smile. "At least she was not assigned as my little sibling. I was fortunately assigned Kon."

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Guilt quickly flashed on Diana's face. Ignore the little flash of lightning there in the corner, please. "Yeah, what are you taking this time around anyway?"

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"I am taking Unconventional Tactics with Professor Reno, Science with the Doctor, and Cultural Appreciation with Lady Ghanima," Raven said. She gave Diana a curious look, sensing her guilt. "There is something you are not telling me," she said. "Why do you feel guilty?"

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Diana tried a smile. "Not guilty. We're in two classes together."

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"Empath," Raven pointed out.

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"Keeper." Diana responded, stubbornly.

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"Why are you hiding something from me?" Raven said sadly. When in doubt, try wibbling.

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Diana patted her on the shoulder. "It's nothing important."

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"I am not certain I believe you," Raven said quietly, "but I will not pester you about it." No matter how much she wanted to know.

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Diana kept patting. "It's not important." She repeated.

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Raven shot her a sideways glance. Clearly she wouldn't feel guilty about something if it was nothing, but she didn't press. "Have you met my little sibling at all?" she asked instead. "Kon is from my world, or one like it, it seems. He knows of a different version of me."