trigons_child: (Leaning back)
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It had been over three months since Karla and Jaenelle had finally managed to heal the trauma to Raven's mind and restore her memories. Her initial reaction had been joy to remember Karla's face and all she meant to her, but then everything else came crashing down. "Thank you," she'd said. "I remember everything again, but I fear this has all left me quite drained. If you will excuse me, I must go rest for awhile."

She knew she wasn't fooling either of them, but they let her go, and she retreated to her room. Once there her composure fled, and she huddled on her bed, wracked with guilt and shame and despair. Her emotions had been twisted and used against her, and the things she'd said and done and even thought about doing.... It would have been bad enough if she'd been under someone else's control, but her brothers' influence hadn't forced the emotions on her, only taken what was already there and tainted them with what they dredged them up from the darkest parts of herself -- the darkness that was still within her. Would always be within her.

She wasn't sure how long she might have stayed that way, hiding in her room and wallowing in her grief, but Karla decided that a few days was more than enough time. Raven didn't react as Karla walked through the door and climbed into the bed beside her, though Philia lifted her head with an anxious whine.

As soon as Karla wrapped her arms around Raven, she started to shake, and then the tears came. She clung to Karla and cried herself to sleep, the first sleep she'd had in days.

In the morning Karla was still there, and she'd had breakfast brought in. With just a look she told Raven she wouldn't accept her not eating, though the smirk that followed made it clear she was enjoying being able to order someone to eat rather than be ordered to do so herself.

"Thank you," Raven said softly, sipping a cup of tea after she'd eaten a little. "For everything, for purging me of my brother's influences and for restoring my memories. I feel myself again, for the first time in a long while."

"Does this mean you're going to go back to wearing black all the time?" Karla said, stroking Raven's hair. "The staff may cry."

Raven couldn't hold back a tiny ghost of a smile, but it didn't quite make it to her eyes, or her voice as she said morosely, "I am still afraid, Karla. I am still half demon. I am in control now, but we both know there is always the risk that when circumstances align against me, I have a tendency to go all dark diva in thigh highs."

Now it was Karla's turn to have her lips twitch. She tried to fight -- no, she wasn't even going to try. She started laughing, and Raven's look of confusion and hurt just made her laugh more. "Karla, I am serious!" Raven protested, and Karla tried to sober up, but after a moment they looked at each other and both dissolved into giggles.

"It feels good to laugh," Ravens said later, still curled against Karla. But it didn't entirely chase her fears away.

"I know you're still scared," Karla said, giving her a comforting squeeze. "But I know the real you, Raven. I saw you face the demon part of yourself. And you won. You're stronger than she is. She may get you to try on those thigh highs every once in awhile" -- she tried to keep a straight face, and mostly succeeded -- "but you will always beat her."

She had been stronger, and she took some comfort in that. "But how do I...?" The words caught in her throat as a wave of anxiety and pain swept through her. She didn't know how or where to begin.

Karla caught Raven's hands in hers. "Shhh," she said. "Don't drive yourself crazy thinking about it all. Just take one day at a time. That's all you can do."

And she had. Throwing herself into her work helped. The children were always a good distraction, and she was happy she could remember them all now. She'd even asked Karla if it would be possible to move to larger quarters at the Estate, since she needed room for visiting children that sometimes spent the night. And she might have been seriously contemplating giving some of them a more permanent home with her as well. She still doted on Kayla, of course, but that part of her that wanted a child of her own hadn't come out of nowhere.

But now Fandom was holding an alumni event, and Raven found herself thinking over these past few months as she debated whether she would be going or not. No, of course she would be going; she could not miss the opportunity to see old friends. And they didn't know her memories had returned, for she'd asked Karla to not tell anyone to give her time to settle.

It was the anxiety creeping in now to disturb the peace she'd found that had her feeling somewhat uneasy. But she refused to let it take hold. She shook her head, took a deep breath, and centered herself, pushing the thoughts away as she put her focus back on the paperwork she was looking over involving expenses for one of the orphanages.

[Open for visits, phone calls, texts, or whatnot. SP because work and running off to doctor's appointment!]

Date: 2015-09-02 01:03 am (UTC)
heromaniac: (celphone)
From: [personal profile] heromaniac
Momoko hummed, playing with the pretty hair comb as she waited for Raven to pick up the phone.

Date: 2015-09-02 01:26 am (UTC)
heromaniac: (Momoko is grinning up at you)
From: [personal profile] heromaniac
"Raaaaaven! Hi hi!" Momoko would click to the different tone in Raven's greeting in a moment. Maybe. "I'm fine. Hey I think I found a hair comb of yours. Pretty silver and with a stone in it that looks like your chakra?"

Date: 2015-09-02 01:47 am (UTC)
heromaniac: (huh what)
From: [personal profile] heromaniac
"Huh." Momoko frowned at it. "It's totally not mine or my style. I found it in one of my drawers as I was packing and it made me think of you so I thought you'd accidentally left it when you visited."

"I'll double check with Mrs Wilson, and then send it to you," she decided, setting it aside for now to just chat with her friend. "It will totally look awesome in your hair. How's everything with you?"

Date: 2015-09-02 02:21 am (UTC)
heromaniac: (yay chattering)
From: [personal profile] heromaniac
"Ooh how is everything with the ki...."

Wait...

"YOU GOT YOUR MEMORIES BACK?!?!?!"

Momoko grabbed the phone with both hands and glee-ed, bouncing happily in place. "REALLY?!?!"

There was a thunk thunk from the floor as Mrs Wilson banged on the ceiling with her cane and Momoko leaned over to yell at the floor: "Sorry Mrs. Wilson!!"

Date: 2015-09-02 03:04 am (UTC)
heromaniac: (smile cheery)
From: [personal profile] heromaniac
That's because she was exploding with it!

Momoko had to check... "You didn't lose the other memories, right? The ones that you made when you didn't remember?"

Date: 2015-09-02 03:37 am (UTC)
heromaniac: (V for victory)
From: [personal profile] heromaniac
"WHEW!" Momoko's relief was almost as palpable as her happiness. "Though I totally would have thrown another party so you re-see our new place and re-meet everyone."

"I am so happy for you, Raven!! I mean, I didn't mind the other you, but it was sad not being able to share memories with that you. Like it was an alternate you." She sighed happily.
Edited Date: 2015-09-02 03:37 am (UTC)

Date: 2015-09-04 02:29 am (UTC)
heromaniac: (smile happy eyes closed)
From: [personal profile] heromaniac
"Me too, but not as precious as you are, so I am glad you're really totally okay now." Momoko grinned. "I bet it's easier to do your work now too."

Date: 2015-09-05 02:21 am (UTC)
heromaniac: (smile giggle)
From: [personal profile] heromaniac
Momoko couldn't help the snicker. "Like we do when the future kids come to visit the island?"

Date: 2015-09-12 09:45 pm (UTC)
heromaniac: (haaappppyyy sunflowers)
From: [personal profile] heromaniac
"More proof that Fandom has worked itself deep inside of us?" Momoko asked, giggling.

Date: 2015-09-02 02:31 am (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Amused)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"Kiss kiss," Karla said, tapping on Raven's door. She liked to check in and visit in the evenings to make sure that Raven wasn't falling prey to melancholy again. "Up for some tea, darling?"

Kayla was with Warren and Cora and Nyles were quietly going over their schoolwork, so they had time for some quality girl-bonding time.

"Actually, forget tea. Up for some truly decadent hot chocolate that may or may not be spiked with something nummy?"

Date: 2015-09-02 02:52 am (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Backwards Giggle)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"Minimal numminess," Karla promised, coming in and floating a tray behind her. "Just enough to add a little extra flavor and to help you relax. I recognize that 'I've been doing paperwork until my brains bleed out of my ears' look."

She wore it often.

Date: 2015-09-02 03:18 am (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Sexy Over Shoulder)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"You just used two words on the banned list of vocabulary for the evening," Karla announced, just making that up. "That means I get two extra tea cakes!"

Because Raven was right, they really were the worst.

Date: 2015-09-02 03:42 am (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Trying Not To Smile)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"That might also be fair," Karla said, pouring the thick, rich chocolate into two cups made of china so thin, light passed through the sides. Into Raven's cup went an extra dollop of peppermint schnapps--her favorite!--as 'punishment.'

"I hope this helps you realize the gravity of your crimes," she said sternly, handing the cup over.

Date: 2015-09-02 04:10 am (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Just Listen!)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"No paperwork references when it's hanging out time," Karla said firmly. "I had to make Warren make the same promise. We work all day, we can take some time for ourselves in the evenings."

[Of course!]

Date: 2015-09-02 05:38 pm (UTC)
glacial_queen: (My Coffee Tastes Weird)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"Good, I was worried that I'd have to make it a royal decree," Karla said, moving over to the chairs. "And nobody wants that."

She doctored her own cocoa and took a long sip. The richness of the chocolate combined with the crispness of the peppermint perfectly. Good choice, her!

"Have you decided about the reunion?" she asked when Raven got settled in next to her.

Date: 2015-09-02 05:52 pm (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Backwards Glance)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
That space being Glacia, specifically.

"Are you going to tell people you got your memory back before that?" Karla asked. "I think Dinah and Momoko would like to know beforehand, at least."

Date: 2015-09-02 06:49 pm (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Looking at You Grin)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"Oh, you spoke to Momo? I'm glad," Karla said, beaming. "It was all I could do not to tell them when I visited her in Tokyo last month. And Dinah will probably tell Priestly, so that'll be handled." She thought a moment, then shook her head. "I don't think you really interacted with anyone else after you lost your memories, no."

Date: 2015-09-03 02:24 pm (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Longing (Sad))
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"I hope so," Karla said, thinking wistfully of the friends and teachers that had moved on to lives of their own. "I miss so many people. We had a good run in high school, didn't we? And, even now, with as wonderful as my life is here...sometimes I wish I could go back, you know? Even with all the danger and invasions and running off to one another's worlds to get nearly killed, we were all friends together. And it wasn't bloody paperwork."

Date: 2015-09-03 04:37 pm (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Uncertain)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"Well, it has been. Longer for us than them, too." Karla and Warren had recently celebrated their birthday, after all; Karla amazed she was already twenty-three. "I still think I should just kidnap everyone and make them live here, with us. It'll be like the dorms again, but with servants and less chocolate syrup rain."

Date: 2015-09-03 04:58 pm (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Trying Not To Smile)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"Impossible," Karla said immediately. "The servants are already quite distraught by how much you make them pick up after you already. Between larger quarters and the upkeep of your very bright and vibrant wardrobe, I don't think they'll be able to attend to any of their other duties."

Karla you brat.

Date: 2015-09-03 09:16 pm (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Ebon-Gray)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"And how much we missed high school," Karla countered, catching the pillow with Craft so it wouldn't spill her drink. "Of course you may. How much bigger would you like?"

Date: 2015-09-03 11:51 pm (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Amused--Cherry Dress)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"Darkness only knows why they'd want to get a glimpse of one more harried blonde in a Territory full of them," Karla snorted. Regally. "Here, let me ask Ingrid for something suitable..." Her eyes went distant for a moment while she communicated with the staff. "Don't be surprised if we get interrupted by people coming to move."

Date: 2015-09-04 12:39 am (UTC)
glacial_queen: (I'm Just Saaaaying...)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
Karla waved her to sit down again. "You don't think they're prepared to do that?"

Servants, Raven. Servants.

Date: 2015-09-04 06:55 pm (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Not Laughing Rly)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"You are," Karla pointed out grandly. "You're staying out of the way and also keeping their meddling Queen out from getting underfoot. They've probably never been more grateful to you. Now tell me about Momoko's call, huh? How did she react to finding out you've had your memories?"

Date: 2015-09-07 02:21 pm (UTC)
glacial_queen: (Default)
From: [personal profile] glacial_queen
"You had your reasons," Karla pointed out. "And I'm sure she understood, which is the important thing."

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